I was sick of my old one. Sick of the haters, sick of feeling like I had to live up to something, and sick of being stalked. I know this blog won't be "hater free", I know that people will still look down upon me, and I bet there will still be a few stalkers in the mix. I am okay with that. I am in a good place in my life. I was losing it. I was losing my faith. I became obsessed with living the life that my blogging friends lived. I wanted it so bad. I tried to change who I was, my family, my husband.... everything. I was not happy with any of them because they weren't living up to what I thought was the only way of life. I was consumed with being perfect for them, so I could seem like the perfect bibical woman. In doing so I was not being that. I was online more than I was cooking or baking, I was reading more than I was spending time with my loved ones, I stoped praying as much, and stoped remembering what Christ did for me. I know have worked through that. I love my life. I am loving being married. I am loving being pregnant (with twins?? maybe?). I am loving our church. I have not changed. I am just real now. Yes I still dress modest. Yes I still plan on homeschooling. Yes I do not plan on working. Yes I still crochet and sew. Yes we are leaving our children up to God. So what has changed? I cut my hair to a length that makes me look cute. I watch tv every now and then. I go to the movies from time to time. I listen to country more than anything. I enjoy the Baptist church. You may think I am a wordly bad person, but I am not. I pray more than ever, I am more caring, I am happier, I want the best for everyone, I do not think everyone has to look like me, and I love more. I might lose some friends but if I do then God didn't want them for me. I am fine with that.
What you can expect from this blog? A lot of pregnancy talk, a lot of marriage talk, fun recipes I am trying (when I am done puking my brains out), pictures of baby projects I am working on, funny stories about my day, a few stories about our crazy dog Bella, and I am sure some modest fashion tips!
I am still working on making this blog cute. Being techo- challenged makes this hard. I can't even work office 2007. So we will see how this goes :)
